[Two days later, she almost takes him up on it. "Help". If she'd needed it, she could ask, he'd said, any time-
But Hayame had never known how to ask for help. She'd made herself into a woman who would never need to ask for help, because she was a woman, because she was a jinba, and receiving help from another, if it were publicly known, would invalidate everything she'd ever achieved. In Horos, even in Kenos, where she was up against strange magics, ever-shifting odds, and unbelievable opponents...
How shameful it still seems to ask for help. How much more shameful it would be to ask for help for that.
It must be Discord, she had been right about it's influence on her season. The heat is unbearable. If she asked... and yet, she doesn't have the benefit of the masks that had cloaked the differences of her form like she'd had at the World's Edge. He had kissed her despite that, but...
But no. She can't. She can't have the first time she sees him again be because of the bestial urges that she has always resented. She'll just- She'll cleanse her Discord. She'll ask for help with that, but she can't ask Claude. She'll take care of it and then...
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But Hayame had never known how to ask for help. She'd made herself into a woman who would never need to ask for help, because she was a woman, because she was a jinba, and receiving help from another, if it were publicly known, would invalidate everything she'd ever achieved. In Horos, even in Kenos, where she was up against strange magics, ever-shifting odds, and unbelievable opponents...
How shameful it still seems to ask for help. How much more shameful it would be to ask for help for that.
It must be Discord, she had been right about it's influence on her season. The heat is unbearable. If she asked... and yet, she doesn't have the benefit of the masks that had cloaked the differences of her form like she'd had at the World's Edge. He had kissed her despite that, but...
But no. She can't. She can't have the first time she sees him again be because of the bestial urges that she has always resented. She'll just- She'll cleanse her Discord. She'll ask for help with that, but she can't ask Claude. She'll take care of it and then...
Maybe then.]