[Even knowing- Or, no, perhaps that's the problem. She didn't know anything in this place, and almost every time she's started to feel confident that she understood the nature of things, that perhaps she'd put a tiny scrap of hope in the right person... She's been proven wrong, or she had failed.
So maybe she doesn't know that he means well, to wish her rest. Her instinct is to chafe, to take back what she's just said, to insist she was hale and ready to fight, and that he insulted her with those kind seeming words.
If she were resting, while he was out doing that they had discussed in that alley... Making enough of a name for themselves through deeds violent and valorous to draw out the Regent or at least his lieutenants... She would hate that. To finally collapse, alone in the misty forest camp she called "home", curling in tight and waiting for her body to heal... She would hate that, too.]
...
[Somewhere on the sea, between Venera and Godsblood... Hayame bites the inside of her cheek. It's hard to say two simple words of gratitude rather than dwell in bitterness and the shame of failure. "Thank you". She tries, maybe the attempt comes through the Firebrand, but-]
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So maybe she doesn't know that he means well, to wish her rest. Her instinct is to chafe, to take back what she's just said, to insist she was hale and ready to fight, and that he insulted her with those kind seeming words.
If she were resting, while he was out doing that they had discussed in that alley... Making enough of a name for themselves through deeds violent and valorous to draw out the Regent or at least his lieutenants... She would hate that. To finally collapse, alone in the misty forest camp she called "home", curling in tight and waiting for her body to heal... She would hate that, too.]
...
[Somewhere on the sea, between Venera and Godsblood... Hayame bites the inside of her cheek. It's hard to say two simple words of gratitude rather than dwell in bitterness and the shame of failure. "Thank you". She tries, maybe the attempt comes through the Firebrand, but-]
Ahhh.
[She fails.]