[She had asked the soldiers stationed more permanently at this outpost how often the wyvern’s rider came by for it, and still… she had just assumed (hoped? feared?) that he would not come today. That was simply how her life worked. Realizing things too late to make them right, too proud to ask for help or easily admit defeat, too cold to merit the effort of warming.
But he comes.
In the next second, she has to strangle the tiny bursts of hope that had blossomed in her hearts, one, two, because… he hadn’t come for her, she had just stood in the path of his routine as if trying to leave it to fate as to whether they would meet again. Even after speaking to Akua, desperately spilling her inability to acknowledge the imperfect relationships she had formed in this place that was so wrong to begin with, even after the other woman’s counsel…
Her tail twitches. Her shoulders tense. She’d heard him call her name, and yet… she doesn’t turn around. She swallows, where he cannot see, summoning her strength and cold fire to-]
Your wyvern is restless.
[Cursing herself for not just saying “Hello, Claude.”]
You sure she's not just unnerved by you standing there staring at her? [He jokes, and decides to approach, an easy smile on his face. Really, a battle-hardened beast like her won't be daunted by Hayame at all, and she's continuing to preen herself until she spots Claude, turning her scaled head towards them and letting out a low rumble of acknowledgement.
Hayame is apparently trying to play things cool, so Claude opts to do the same, walking right by her to approach his wyvern and pet her snout.]
Hey, cute stuff! Did you miss me?
[Definitely asking the wyvern and not Hayame. Yes.]
[Of course he jests. He was always doing that, and though she swore that she hated it, that it vexed her sorely even when it wasn’t hate…]
Tch-
[She will not dignify a joke with a serious answer. She will not. Of course it isn’t just because she is near, how could she unsettle such a large creature? It was because-
Because talking about the wyvern is far easier than talking about herself. About him. About… them.]
Why would she be missing you?
[It becomes more like a lie, an act, because she has heard from the soldiers here that Claude came often, but-]
Have you been neglecting her?
[If she had not been stood here… would he have send another message? Would he have come to speak with her in person- ?]
I don't know... [Claude continues casually, but he turns to look at Hayame directly now, and there's a serious look in his eyes behind the ever-present smile he can wear like a mask.] Do you think she feels neglected?
[He'd been here just yesterday, on top of having a retainer he employed to see to her when he wasn't around, so that was far from the truth. Really, he's asking something else entirely. Hayame had to be here for a reason, bothering to indulge this conversation at all instead of immediately leaving, so why...?]
[There is a moment she cannot hide in which she looks like she did in that tunnel, right before she fled from the sudden and overwhelming revelation of emotions she’d never thought would ever, ever be leveled at her. Not in a million years, not in a million lifetimes.
But she locks her knees. She is not a coward (or maybe she is, about this, but she doesn’t want to be-), she has taken the choice, the chance, to stand here just in case he might pass by, and here he was-]
Are wyverns the type of creature that can be satisfied with an occasional word, no matter how gallant sounding?
[Her stance is proud and high, her arms crossed, but there is something vulnerable in her eye she wished wasn’t there. A care that should never have happened, if she were still the cold, unassailable warrior she had always striven to be, but…
She is not that person anymore.
And she doesn’t know whether that is good or bad, whether that will give her strength or make her weak, and until she understands…
Her brow furrows beneath the obscuring line of her leather eyepatch.]
[Maybe he was rubbing off on Hayame a little too much, for her to even bother to entertain this double conversation for as long as she has. Or maybe she, blunt and direct even as she is, finds misdirection easier as he does, for once. Still, she's here, and not leaving, or rejecting him outright despite all his fears telling him she would. His false smile fades, even as he feels like his heart is being seized in his chest. She is here, just as proud and stubborn as ever.]
Then... Let's talk. [He says it softly, his hand dropping from his wyvern as he faces her properly.] Though I assumed you didn't want to. Actually, I was pretty sure I'd scared you off for good.
[A wry smile, this one more honest, more vulnerable. Once again, he didn't know Hayame as well as he thought he did.]
[He is smiling, even as he has stripped away the pretense she had been shamefully content to hide behind. Her lips thin and the corners twitch downward, but she stiffens her expression to match the tense hold of her body and stops it before it can become a full frown. She doesn’t know why she bothers. Let him see how displeased she is, let him see what an unpleasant woman he has for some reason decided to care for-
She should refute the idea that she was scared off. It sounds so weak-]
I was not scared.
[But that protest is weak, and she fears that the lie is obvious, even without full awareness of how terrified she’d looked in the roots when he tried to press love and support into her hands. How pathetic she must have looked, how pathetic to put herself in his path now-
She is not breathing, and hadn’t noticed. Her fingers flex, sharp teeth suck and bite into her bottom lip, reluctant to talk even if it must be done to do away with the wrongness between them, all the mistakes he’d made in his thinking.]
- What did your first message say?
[A weakness, bared, to stall. (It’s not that she needs to know-)]
[Unfortunately for her, the more she tries to hide her feelings, the more unpleasant she tries to make herself, the more she endears herself to him. They're birds of a feather, in a way: Claude just hid his feelings behind an easy smile and a joke instead of behind a glare and an angry word, and now he sees right through it.]
Oh, that one? [He casts his mind back.] I was asking if you were safe, since it was when we got back from the tree. And I said that if you needed help, I'd be there. I guess I didn't think about it all the way through, so... sorry about that.
[He takes a few steps closer, like he's testing the waters. Even now, it feels like the tenuous connection between them hangs by a thread, and he's not keen to tug on it too hard yet.]
[If she was safe. If she needed help. He's sorry- she supposes, for not knowing she would not be able to parse his words. All of it just whirls around in her head, knocking around in her skull despite how still she seems.
She cannot say that she had almost called upon him more than once in the weeks since they had returned from the Tree. Because she was lonely. Because she was in heat. Because she wanted to know what his message had said. Because she had gotten used to him being around. ... She does not even want to admit it to herself. Even now, she struggles with wishing she had condemned him more aggressively beneath the roots, made him too afraid to even dare try to contact her again-
But he steps closer and she does not move. Not beyond a slight hint of a swallow that runs down her throat.]
The world did not end.
[They were still here. The tree was healthy again. The Blight was being cured. And with it... the desperation to confess things before it was too late. Time had been rewound, and yet... she still remembered what he'd said. Still remembered he'd said he'd not regret it.
She loses the rest of the words. The ones where she was going to ask him if she should do him the favor of forgetting something he'd surely only said in the heat of the moment.]
[He agrees, smiles brighter, relief melting his expression. They're fine, and he still has a chance to figure out some of the crazier suggestions he'd offered her. Not just going to her world, but fixing things there, and... Well, that was a thought for the future. He needed to shut off all the ideas always rattling around in his head.
For now, he closes the distance between them, gently reaches, takes one of her hands in his.]
I might've been desperate back then, and I blurted things out sooner than I would have under ordinary circumstances... but I know how I felt. None of it was a mistake.
[He knows how happy he is now, seeing her safe and well after the Tree, seeing that she'd 'accidentally' put herself somewhere he might be. That maybe she did, after all, want to be near him.]
[Hayame does not stop him from taking her hand (his is warm, smoother than she expects from an archer), but he has only seconds before she rips it away again, clutching it to her chest almost defensively over where her shard rests in her sternum and her iliachtida lies tucked beneath the binding of her breasts. Her fluster crawls warm and flush up her neck and into her cheeks, her one dark eye darts back and forth to make sure none of the other soldiers at the outpost had been looking in their direction, but-
She doesn't leave. Her knees are still locked up, hocks quivering, hooves digging into the dirt.]
You do not know that.
[The words are hissed between them, already feeling as if she is losing control when she- she needs it, doesn't she? Without it-]
[He doesn't resist when he snatches her hand back, as if he expected that reaction, watching her evenly while she flusters.]
Who are you trying to convince, here? Ask yourself that honestly.
[All she had to say was that she didn't feel the same, and they could go their separate ways with no ill feeling on the matter. But this dancing around things, her seemingly nervous behaviours... That can't be it.
He drops his voice, low enough for only her to hear.]
[Ask herself honestly? She doesn't want to. She has avoided being forthright even with the person she should be confiding in most, and yet he so strategically narrows down the issue to a single question. To two questions.
Why can she not just say "you"? Just live the lie that she is trying to convince him that he is wrong, make him realize that he has made a mistake when really-
Really-
Her face grows ruddier, her lips twist with the effort it takes to be silent despite her best efforts, and she wants- She wants to run away again. She had made a mistake, in standing around hoping she might see him, in thinking she was ready for this. She can't answer him, it takes everything she has just to mask the upset she feels with what she hopes looks like anger. Was she unlovable?]
I already told you-
[In the roots, in the dark. Hadn't she been clear enough? (No, no she hadn't, it had been so chaotic and their communions had bled together in a messy, oppressive spill of thoughts and visions.)
But she had tried to. She'd tried to tell him she had done horrible things in her life, that she was a creature that only existed because humans had bred her for battle and obedience or the bit and the saddle, that she was could only see her fate as one to die to cleanse her dishonor... and didn't that answer his question already?
... Must she say that she believes herself to be unlovable in so damnably plain a word as "yes"?]
It's not true. [Claude responds, without waiting for her to struggle to pull together an answer.] Do you think I'm somehow better than you are? Armies have lived and died on my word. Thousands of lives were lost.
[And while he always hated needless killing and preferred peace, that was something he'd never be able to run away from. He had waged war, and he would never allow himself to forget that. "Sorry, but I must," didn't save a man who a second later would have an arrow through his chest, for the sole reason that he fought under the banner of Emperor Edelgard. It didn't bring back those of Leicester or Almyra who had fallen on his incursion into Adrestia, or the former schoolmates who he had once laughed alongside turned to enemies, and who were now corpses filling his path.]
You still deserve happiness, and the freedom to pursue it, just like anyone else. No, even moreso, to make up for what you've never had.
[His words sound beautiful. In the roots they had been a lovely fantasy, too, grand and hopeful and something like out a dream... But when had dreams ever come true for her? It isn't just that people died, it was-]
... And what were those armies fighting for?
[Her voice is still barely above a whisper, all too well aware that one of the soldiers could come by at any time, embarrassed by how little she had thought this out. Had she truly believed that he would allow her to simply... to go back to how things used to be? Had she thought that none of this would come up? She'd just wanted-]
Does it matter? The point is, I have blood on my hands too. I didn't start the war that consumed Fódlan, but I did end it.
[It doesn't make him better than anyone, least of all Hayame, who for all intents and purposes has only known a life of servitude. Claude was able to make choices of his own volition, and had vastly more power than her to do so.
He's keeping his voice low, but he's also aware this as the potential to turn into a very public argument. He glances along the stables, voice still hushed, and looks back at Hayame.]
Look, I didn't want things to be like this when I saw you again, and I doubt you did either. I missed you, you know...? [Maybe she'll argue that it was stupid and delusional to miss her too that she isn't worth that emotional effort, so he heads her off before she can.]
[What is she supposed to say? That she missed him? Was that not pathetically obvious, now that he has found her standing here in the one place beyond his home where he could be reliably found? Why must she use words to say it?]
You fought to end a war, to- to make peace, and give people better lives-
[... Things that are noble. Things that were good. And she-]
I turned away from the Armless as if I were above them. I captured jinba that escaped, I hunted down anyone my stable master required-
[She had turned away from the sufferings of the Armless and held her head high as if she were better than them, more worthy of not being treated like horses, cannon fodder, and breeding stock. She had captured escaped jinba, she had consigned them to the fates she feared more than anything just to try and make sure she would never fall that far, and he...]
[Had he joined the ranks of those who would accuse her of always fighting or arguing uselessly with everyone around her? Her voice snaps too loud, startling a strange, six-legged mount a few stalls down.]
Why does everyone think that I am not tired of fighting?
[Just because she was willing, because she felt she had to, because it was the only thing she knew how to do-
Her fingers curl tighter at her breast, yearning for the comforting warmth she'd felt last time she'd held his shard.]
I know you're tired of fighting. That's why I'm telling you that you can stop.
[Just as he had beneath the Tree, when he told her she could put down her burden. He didn't come into this trying to pick an argument, and the only one trying to create one is her, with all these denials and refutations. He reaches up, gently touches her shoulder.]
Come on. We can go somewhere quieter, and just... talk. [Not argue, or fight, or disagree, or make a scene that will just make a rift between them again.] How about the forest?
[There are a lot less monsters around, these days, and even less people. It's not like they'd be likely to have an audience there.]
[It's not that easy. Why does he think he can make it sound so easy? Just stop? Again, she is too slow to stop him from touching her, and has to slap his hand away far too late not to betray that... she didn't want to even be doing that. She wanted... She'd almost reached out to him so many times in the past weeks, not even just when she was in heat-
But they're practically in public. She's angry, she's confused, she's hurting still from so many things. This is her chance to turn and flee, to just go, she doesn't want to talk, because if they talk-
She remembers what Akua had said, when the other woman had come to visit her in her stall after the loss of the Oracle.
And when she turns from him... it's not to disappear into the outpost or down the road back to the cornerstone.
She heads into the forest. There is a clearing by a stream not far from there.]
[Claude's once again not surprised at being slapped away, even if it stings in more ways than one. He lets her go on ahead while he takes a moment to bid goodbye to his wyvern for now, giving her a snack of dried meat and promising he'll be back later.
Once he catches up to Hayame, he realises it's cooler in the shade of the forest, and peaceful, with little to interrupt the silence except distant birdsong and the growing sound of the trickling stream.]
This looks like a good spot... Let's stop here a while. [Once he's sure the perimeter of the clearing is monster-free, he pauses to crouch by the water and splash his face.]
[When Claude enters the clearing, Hayame is standing by the stream, her back to him and her arms down by her sides. Her head is slightly down, her tail slightly traitorous, flicking back and forth in betrayal of how anxious she was despite how cold or calm she was trying to appear.
A good spot. A good spot... to talk.
She cannot call him a fool today. She is the fool, who had dreamed this would go differently, who thought she could somehow speak to him again as if nothing had changed, like she could just rewind... Wouldn't it be better if they did? Wouldn't it make all of this easier... ?
Hayame doesn't stir much, but her eye drifts to the side and down, watching Claude (Khalid) splash water on his face as she bites into her bottom lip. ... He looked hale. ... That was good.]
[He knows her body language well enough to recognise when she's anxious, but he doesn't comment, instead just doing the opposite and flopping back on the grass to sit, taking in the scenery like he finds the whole thing relaxing. (It would be moreso if Hayame relaxed, too, but... one thing at a time.) He looks up at the sky, clear to see through the canopy of the trees.]
Forests are still kind of a novelty for me, you know. Almyra doesn't really have them, so Fódlan was the first time I got to experience any.
[The sights, the smells, the animals and insects, how green it was, learning to climb a tree for the first time... As a student at the academy, it was all foreign to him.
Still, before he gets lost in reminiscing, he fixes his attention back up at Hayame.]
Enough about me rambling, anyway. I want to shut my big mouth and listen to you, for once.
[It doesn't surprise her that he just... just makes himself comfortable. She... She hasn't laid down in days. Not since she had slunk to Springstar to have her Discord cleansed, in desperate attempt to prevent herself from trying to sate her heat. That had not gone... how she'd intended. But at least it meant there had been one night she'd slept on her belly since they'd lost the Oracle, instead of standing stiff with her knees locked in the corner of her makeshift stalls or beneath trees in the woods of Alenroux.
Forests. He talks about forests, first, then offers to listen to her, but what does he want her to say? She'd already tried to scare him off, to convince him that she was unlovable, that she wasn't deserving of love, and yet-]
... Echigo province is covered in forests. And mountains.
[She doesn't turn from her position by the water's edge... but she does turn her face just enough that she can keep him in the corner of her eye. She imagines that's not what he means when he said he wanted to listen to her. But he doesn't want her to fight, so... what is there? Does he want to hear about her world?]
[He flops back on the grass onto his back next, linking his arms behind his head.]
If I see it in person one day, I'll have an idea of what I'm in for.
[But he said he'd listen, so he goes quiet again, watching her. Of course, there was still that one thing he really wanted to talk about, but hadn't Hayame been the one to approach him? Wasn't there anything she wanted to say?]
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But he comes.
In the next second, she has to strangle the tiny bursts of hope that had blossomed in her hearts, one, two, because… he hadn’t come for her, she had just stood in the path of his routine as if trying to leave it to fate as to whether they would meet again. Even after speaking to Akua, desperately spilling her inability to acknowledge the imperfect relationships she had formed in this place that was so wrong to begin with, even after the other woman’s counsel…
Her tail twitches. Her shoulders tense. She’d heard him call her name, and yet… she doesn’t turn around. She swallows, where he cannot see, summoning her strength and cold fire to-]
Your wyvern is restless.
[Cursing herself for not just saying “Hello, Claude.”]
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Hayame is apparently trying to play things cool, so Claude opts to do the same, walking right by her to approach his wyvern and pet her snout.]
Hey, cute stuff! Did you miss me?
[Definitely asking the wyvern and not Hayame. Yes.]
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Tch-
[She will not dignify a joke with a serious answer. She will not. Of course it isn’t just because she is near, how could she unsettle such a large creature? It was because-
Because talking about the wyvern is far easier than talking about herself. About him. About… them.]
Why would she be missing you?
[It becomes more like a lie, an act, because she has heard from the soldiers here that Claude came often, but-]
Have you been neglecting her?
[If she had not been stood here… would he have send another message? Would he have come to speak with her in person- ?]
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[He'd been here just yesterday, on top of having a retainer he employed to see to her when he wasn't around, so that was far from the truth. Really, he's asking something else entirely. Hayame had to be here for a reason, bothering to indulge this conversation at all instead of immediately leaving, so why...?]
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But she locks her knees. She is not a coward (or maybe she is, about this, but she doesn’t want to be-), she has taken the choice, the chance, to stand here just in case he might pass by, and here he was-]
Are wyverns the type of creature that can be satisfied with an occasional word, no matter how gallant sounding?
[Her stance is proud and high, her arms crossed, but there is something vulnerable in her eye she wished wasn’t there. A care that should never have happened, if she were still the cold, unassailable warrior she had always striven to be, but…
She is not that person anymore.
And she doesn’t know whether that is good or bad, whether that will give her strength or make her weak, and until she understands…
Her brow furrows beneath the obscuring line of her leather eyepatch.]
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Then... Let's talk. [He says it softly, his hand dropping from his wyvern as he faces her properly.] Though I assumed you didn't want to. Actually, I was pretty sure I'd scared you off for good.
[A wry smile, this one more honest, more vulnerable. Once again, he didn't know Hayame as well as he thought he did.]
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She should refute the idea that she was scared off. It sounds so weak-]
I was not scared.
[But that protest is weak, and she fears that the lie is obvious, even without full awareness of how terrified she’d looked in the roots when he tried to press love and support into her hands. How pathetic she must have looked, how pathetic to put herself in his path now-
She is not breathing, and hadn’t noticed. Her fingers flex, sharp teeth suck and bite into her bottom lip, reluctant to talk even if it must be done to do away with the wrongness between them, all the mistakes he’d made in his thinking.]
- What did your first message say?
[A weakness, bared, to stall. (It’s not that she needs to know-)]
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Oh, that one? [He casts his mind back.] I was asking if you were safe, since it was when we got back from the tree. And I said that if you needed help, I'd be there. I guess I didn't think about it all the way through, so... sorry about that.
[He takes a few steps closer, like he's testing the waters. Even now, it feels like the tenuous connection between them hangs by a thread, and he's not keen to tug on it too hard yet.]
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She cannot say that she had almost called upon him more than once in the weeks since they had returned from the Tree. Because she was lonely. Because she was in heat. Because she wanted to know what his message had said. Because she had gotten used to him being around. ... She does not even want to admit it to herself. Even now, she struggles with wishing she had condemned him more aggressively beneath the roots, made him too afraid to even dare try to contact her again-
But he steps closer and she does not move. Not beyond a slight hint of a swallow that runs down her throat.]
The world did not end.
[They were still here. The tree was healthy again. The Blight was being cured. And with it... the desperation to confess things before it was too late. Time had been rewound, and yet... she still remembered what he'd said. Still remembered he'd said he'd not regret it.
She loses the rest of the words. The ones where she was going to ask him if she should do him the favor of forgetting something he'd surely only said in the heat of the moment.]
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[He agrees, smiles brighter, relief melting his expression. They're fine, and he still has a chance to figure out some of the crazier suggestions he'd offered her. Not just going to her world, but fixing things there, and...
Well, that was a thought for the future. He needed to shut off all the ideas always rattling around in his head.
For now, he closes the distance between them, gently reaches, takes one of her hands in his.]
I might've been desperate back then, and I blurted things out sooner than I would have under ordinary circumstances... but I know how I felt. None of it was a mistake.
[He knows how happy he is now, seeing her safe and well after the Tree, seeing that she'd 'accidentally' put herself somewhere he might be. That maybe she did, after all, want to be near him.]
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She doesn't leave. Her knees are still locked up, hocks quivering, hooves digging into the dirt.]
You do not know that.
[The words are hissed between them, already feeling as if she is losing control when she- she needs it, doesn't she? Without it-]
Just because you do not think it yet-
[She'd warned him, and he was still determined?]
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Who are you trying to convince, here? Ask yourself that honestly.
[All she had to say was that she didn't feel the same, and they could go their separate ways with no ill feeling on the matter. But this dancing around things, her seemingly nervous behaviours... That can't be it.
He drops his voice, low enough for only her to hear.]
...Do you think you're unlovable?
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Why can she not just say "you"? Just live the lie that she is trying to convince him that he is wrong, make him realize that he has made a mistake when really-
Really-
Her face grows ruddier, her lips twist with the effort it takes to be silent despite her best efforts, and she wants- She wants to run away again. She had made a mistake, in standing around hoping she might see him, in thinking she was ready for this. She can't answer him, it takes everything she has just to mask the upset she feels with what she hopes looks like anger. Was she unlovable?]
I already told you-
[In the roots, in the dark. Hadn't she been clear enough? (No, no she hadn't, it had been so chaotic and their communions had bled together in a messy, oppressive spill of thoughts and visions.)
But she had tried to. She'd tried to tell him she had done horrible things in her life, that she was a creature that only existed because humans had bred her for battle and obedience or the bit and the saddle, that she was could only see her fate as one to die to cleanse her dishonor... and didn't that answer his question already?
... Must she say that she believes herself to be unlovable in so damnably plain a word as "yes"?]
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[And while he always hated needless killing and preferred peace, that was something he'd never be able to run away from. He had waged war, and he would never allow himself to forget that. "Sorry, but I must," didn't save a man who a second later would have an arrow through his chest, for the sole reason that he fought under the banner of Emperor Edelgard. It didn't bring back those of Leicester or Almyra who had fallen on his incursion into Adrestia, or the former schoolmates who he had once laughed alongside turned to enemies, and who were now corpses filling his path.]
You still deserve happiness, and the freedom to pursue it, just like anyone else. No, even moreso, to make up for what you've never had.
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... And what were those armies fighting for?
[Her voice is still barely above a whisper, all too well aware that one of the soldiers could come by at any time, embarrassed by how little she had thought this out. Had she truly believed that he would allow her to simply... to go back to how things used to be? Had she thought that none of this would come up? She'd just wanted-]
What were you trying to accomplish?
[Was he better than her? So many were.]
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[It doesn't make him better than anyone, least of all Hayame, who for all intents and purposes has only known a life of servitude. Claude was able to make choices of his own volition, and had vastly more power than her to do so.
He's keeping his voice low, but he's also aware this as the potential to turn into a very public argument. He glances along the stables, voice still hushed, and looks back at Hayame.]
Look, I didn't want things to be like this when I saw you again, and I doubt you did either. I missed you, you know...? [Maybe she'll argue that it was stupid and delusional to miss her too that she isn't worth that emotional effort, so he heads her off before she can.]
Not everything has to be a fight.
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[What is she supposed to say? That she missed him? Was that not pathetically obvious, now that he has found her standing here in the one place beyond his home where he could be reliably found? Why must she use words to say it?]
You fought to end a war, to- to make peace, and give people better lives-
[... Things that are noble. Things that were good. And she-]
I turned away from the Armless as if I were above them. I captured jinba that escaped, I hunted down anyone my stable master required-
[She had turned away from the sufferings of the Armless and held her head high as if she were better than them, more worthy of not being treated like horses, cannon fodder, and breeding stock. She had captured escaped jinba, she had consigned them to the fates she feared more than anything just to try and make sure she would never fall that far, and he...]
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[Had he joined the ranks of those who would accuse her of always fighting or arguing uselessly with everyone around her? Her voice snaps too loud, startling a strange, six-legged mount a few stalls down.]
Why does everyone think that I am not tired of fighting?
[Just because she was willing, because she felt she had to, because it was the only thing she knew how to do-
Her fingers curl tighter at her breast, yearning for the comforting warmth she'd felt last time she'd held his shard.]
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[Just as he had beneath the Tree, when he told her she could put down her burden. He didn't come into this trying to pick an argument, and the only one trying to create one is her, with all these denials and refutations. He reaches up, gently touches her shoulder.]
Come on. We can go somewhere quieter, and just... talk. [Not argue, or fight, or disagree, or make a scene that will just make a rift between them again.] How about the forest?
[There are a lot less monsters around, these days, and even less people. It's not like they'd be likely to have an audience there.]
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But they're practically in public. She's angry, she's confused, she's hurting still from so many things. This is her chance to turn and flee, to just go, she doesn't want to talk, because if they talk-
She remembers what Akua had said, when the other woman had come to visit her in her stall after the loss of the Oracle.
And when she turns from him... it's not to disappear into the outpost or down the road back to the cornerstone.
She heads into the forest. There is a clearing by a stream not far from there.]
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Once he catches up to Hayame, he realises it's cooler in the shade of the forest, and peaceful, with little to interrupt the silence except distant birdsong and the growing sound of the trickling stream.]
This looks like a good spot... Let's stop here a while. [Once he's sure the perimeter of the clearing is monster-free, he pauses to crouch by the water and splash his face.]
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A good spot. A good spot... to talk.
She cannot call him a fool today. She is the fool, who had dreamed this would go differently, who thought she could somehow speak to him again as if nothing had changed, like she could just rewind... Wouldn't it be better if they did? Wouldn't it make all of this easier... ?
Hayame doesn't stir much, but her eye drifts to the side and down, watching Claude (Khalid) splash water on his face as she bites into her bottom lip. ... He looked hale. ... That was good.]
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Forests are still kind of a novelty for me, you know. Almyra doesn't really have them, so Fódlan was the first time I got to experience any.
[The sights, the smells, the animals and insects, how green it was, learning to climb a tree for the first time... As a student at the academy, it was all foreign to him.
Still, before he gets lost in reminiscing, he fixes his attention back up at Hayame.]
Enough about me rambling, anyway. I want to shut my big mouth and listen to you, for once.
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Forests. He talks about forests, first, then offers to listen to her, but what does he want her to say? She'd already tried to scare him off, to convince him that she was unlovable, that she wasn't deserving of love, and yet-]
... Echigo province is covered in forests. And mountains.
[She doesn't turn from her position by the water's edge... but she does turn her face just enough that she can keep him in the corner of her eye. She imagines that's not what he means when he said he wanted to listen to her. But he doesn't want her to fight, so... what is there? Does he want to hear about her world?]
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[He flops back on the grass onto his back next, linking his arms behind his head.]
If I see it in person one day, I'll have an idea of what I'm in for.
[But he said he'd listen, so he goes quiet again, watching her. Of course, there was still that one thing he really wanted to talk about, but hadn't Hayame been the one to approach him? Wasn't there anything she wanted to say?]
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