[How pathetic it is, to be glad to be interrupted by her gut.
But she is, and she will have to live with knowing that. The embarrassment of how loud the rumble was is easier to swallow than her frustration over attempting to understand the word "friendship", over her inability to finish trying to banish Akua from her stall. She should do it... But if she did, then she will be alone again, with just herself and the crushing sense of defeat that came from having killed and hunted for an Oracle that still fell to the hands of the enemy despite her efforts.
Was it more pathetic to take that way out, or... ?]
... Some time.
[Despite the fact that their shard-based bodies didn't require food in the same way that a mortal body was supposed to, she still tended to eat normally, steadfastly refusing to accept their circumstances. She just...
She presses her forehead harder into the knuckles serving as a buffer between her face and the harsh wood of the stall walls, unable to believe that she was even about to suggest it, that it could fix anything, or at least serve as some way to end it...]
[ Akua, by contrast, only eats when she feels like it. As a shard-bearer, she knows she can eschew more sleep and more food, than she could before, and she had never been the type to over-indulge. Plus, she'd been a shade for years, and could not eat at all during that time. It was easier, a habit that she did not break, when she had been revived, simply eating only when necessary.
It had not helped, the guilt she felt then.
Even now, she does not heavily indulge. ]
Moderately so. Would you like to find something? I know of a stand that has fine fruits nearby. they even have oranges.
[ She would give Hayame the space, to think on what she said. She only hoped that it would lead to her learning to... bend more. When the situation required. ]
[Despite how much she ate... Hayame never did quite overindulge- though it likely looked that way to others. She had a half ton body to fuel after all, and it took a lot of food to do that. At least, it was supposed to. And she hated to be reminded that their existences had somehow been reduced to just gems embedded in their bodies...
So she ate. And she slept. And she...]
... You will have to educate me on these... "oranges".
[- Takes the escape from more talk on the nature of friendship. Later, alone in the dark, she will think more on what Akua has said.
But she doesn't want to be alone in the dark yet. Not again.]
[Hayame did not like when her ignorance was pointed out, even in passing or jest. Her first instinct is to frown and say something cutting or dismissive, anything to obfuscate that she might be looking stupid... But she swallows it. She doesn't..
She's tired. She doesn't want to argue anymore. Not with one of the few people who professed to accept her, to care for her, even if she was still wrestling with the definition of friendship she had always understood being... so far from what she had. After a moment of hesitation...
Hayame takes Akua's hand, a hint of something awkward and ruddy on her cheeks.]
... I know the color.
[But the food? She doesn't have the slightest idea what to imagine. Except maybe what shade it is.]
[ Akua does not want to shame Hayame, but instead, she wants to share this with her. She does not know which worlds had them, and which did not. They are here, so surely they must be rather common. Though... she knows they require particular environments. Heat, and lots of water. Something not common in Praes, but something that Wolof had in droves. They used it for export and for food for their own people, but it would never be enough for the rest of Praes. It is why the country resorts to... other measures. Like Human Sacrifice. To affect the weather. ]
They are a fruit, and they burst when you eat them. They are both a sweet and sour citrus. You will find them pleasing, I hope.
[Hayame does not know it, but the land she hails from does have citrus fruits. Small things, a bit more bitter than these oranges, sometimes unpalatable unless reduced in cooking or used sparingly for juice, in the southern islands... But she has never been there, and the closest she has come to going there was the year the Shimazu clan sent a buyer to Exhibition Day. The Shimazu were known for sacrificing jinba by the droves to win battles... and so she had never wanted to go south.
She will never taste a fruit like that in her own world.
So here... While she is here and Akua is saying they are good...]
I like fruit as much as the next person...
[She concedes. And she follows to where the oranges are.]
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But she is, and she will have to live with knowing that. The embarrassment of how loud the rumble was is easier to swallow than her frustration over attempting to understand the word "friendship", over her inability to finish trying to banish Akua from her stall. She should do it... But if she did, then she will be alone again, with just herself and the crushing sense of defeat that came from having killed and hunted for an Oracle that still fell to the hands of the enemy despite her efforts.
Was it more pathetic to take that way out, or... ?]
... Some time.
[Despite the fact that their shard-based bodies didn't require food in the same way that a mortal body was supposed to, she still tended to eat normally, steadfastly refusing to accept their circumstances. She just...
She presses her forehead harder into the knuckles serving as a buffer between her face and the harsh wood of the stall walls, unable to believe that she was even about to suggest it, that it could fix anything, or at least serve as some way to end it...]
- Are you hungry?
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It had not helped, the guilt she felt then.
Even now, she does not heavily indulge. ]
Moderately so. Would you like to find something? I know of a stand that has fine fruits nearby. they even have oranges.
[ She would give Hayame the space, to think on what she said. She only hoped that it would lead to her learning to... bend more. When the situation required. ]
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So she ate. And she slept. And she...]
... You will have to educate me on these... "oranges".
[- Takes the escape from more talk on the nature of friendship. Later, alone in the dark, she will think more on what Akua has said.
But she doesn't want to be alone in the dark yet. Not again.]
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Oh Hayame.
You have never had one?
[ She held out her hand, an offer to take it, to lead her outward. ]
Well, now we must have one! We grew them where I am from, we are famous for them!
[ Along with betrayal. And beings some of the baddest bitches out there. ]
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She's tired. She doesn't want to argue anymore. Not with one of the few people who professed to accept her, to care for her, even if she was still wrestling with the definition of friendship she had always understood being... so far from what she had. After a moment of hesitation...
Hayame takes Akua's hand, a hint of something awkward and ruddy on her cheeks.]
... I know the color.
[But the food? She doesn't have the slightest idea what to imagine. Except maybe what shade it is.]
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[ Akua does not want to shame Hayame, but instead, she wants to share this with her. She does not know which worlds had them, and which did not. They are here, so surely they must be rather common. Though... she knows they require particular environments. Heat, and lots of water. Something not common in Praes, but something that Wolof had in droves. They used it for export and for food for their own people, but it would never be enough for the rest of Praes. It is why the country resorts to... other measures. Like Human Sacrifice. To affect the weather. ]
They are a fruit, and they burst when you eat them. They are both a sweet and sour citrus. You will find them pleasing, I hope.
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She will never taste a fruit like that in her own world.
So here... While she is here and Akua is saying they are good...]
I like fruit as much as the next person...
[She concedes. And she follows to where the oranges are.]